Sunday, May 08, 2005

Sunday, May 8, 2005

Watching Videos

Time comes to 8 o'clock in the morning, I got up and ready for a walk. The road I am going to is flanked with green trees and colorful flowers. The CD I was listening to is Usher's <> album. I like to do everything with songs whenever I am having a walk, hanging out or folding the washing and etc. Sometimes i would even dance or hum with the music together. Music soothes me a lot.

11am, mom went out for her job. And just then, I got a call from my friend asking me to eat Chinese meat dumpling at his home. Some of my friend they are good at cooking and making delicious chinese cuisine. I was a little hesitated whether to go or not because I had already planed what to do today. Besides, he has just got married lately, it deserved to think something sensible. Although I know his wife very well but I still don't feel really comfortable when being with them alone. It is just sort of awkawrd. But one the other hand, Gyoza is one of my favorite food and whatever, it is no better than have a lunch without self cooking! Therefore, I decided to go promising to be there at 12.

12am, reaching at their home, having meat dumpling together. Yummy!! The taste was over my expectation actually! After finishing the lunch, we saw <Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban> at home theather. I missed seeing it at theater, so this time I saw it I was totally moved. I would read the book again. Seems so interesting!!<Kung Fu Hustle> is also an interesting movie directed by Chow Xinchi, a famous HongKong comedy actor. Really excited. His movies always teach people not to give up your dreams and never forget your pure heart. Too right!!

Mother's Day

Today May 8 is mother's day in Japan. It's a day our daughters say thanks to their mothers. Arigato, Okaasan!! ( Thanks a lot, mom! I appreciate you!) Also we bought some gifts for our mothers. So am I. This morning, I gave her a blue christal bracelet I had bought for her on the other day. She looked astonished to get present from me because I had never done this thing before. But I know she was happy. All I want to say to her is "Mom, you helped me a lot. I love you~!"

Monday, May 02, 2005

Monday, May 2, 2005


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Yesterday,at 3, I went to a friend's home. She called me to come to her home to have a BBQ Party the day before yesterday. She came back from her university to her home recently.


It was rainy and cloudy yesterday, so I wasn't in mood going out side. But well, because it IS a PROMISE, I had to go whatever the weather would be like. But NOW, I would say it was WORTH! Her home was near to the hospital, so I was able to visit there again to see Hanachan!! I haven't seen him for about twenty days if I count it. Honestly, I had never given a thought I would see him so soon. I just wanted to go to library and search some books at first. THEN tak a chance cuz I had no idea if i were lucky enough to meet him at hospital because that day was Sunday, he would possibly not be there. But I WAS ABLE to see him. I was so lucky! The staffs were all my acquaintances, who worked hard and helped me a lot when I was totally down because of illness. So I was able to behave myself and we had a ball. I was satisfied and made up my mind not to ask more.


A little bitter, but happy. I should cherish this time I have. Life is just like this.

Discussing Politics

After coming back home, I was surprised to find the shoes increased in front door. They had invited other friends while I and K was out. BBQ party's begun!

It was fun though we didn't know each other at first. Mother and her friend was busy with preparing dishes for us, chatting loudly. I liked harumaki best and rolling lots of food, like meat, vegetable and anything else into it. They were so triffic! I haven't eaten that chinese food for ages. After finishing dinner, mothers and fathers began talking about demonstration and some movement Japan's government should take against China. They constantly used the word "facing history as mirror" in a strict way being eloquently critical and eager. People here are really concerned about politics. I was a little shamed for myself because I didn't have enough knowledge about politics and history between the two country that much. So all I could do was keep silent and listen to their opinions which I think a little emotive and one-sidely. It is hard to avoid this phenomenon happen because the discussing people here are all from same background, all used to come here as an exchange student from their common nation. In this case, their children are mostly hard-studying and brilliant. Most of them did do well at school when they in thier motherland, so it wasn't that hard for them to master language and go to would-be prestige colleges in Japan. They would always feel sort of obligated to do better than their parents had done. They are tend to be young, clever, and adaptable especially when they were born in high educational background families.

Well, that may be so-called " Hungry Spirit" or..high expectation for prospects of their children. Bright future set by parents. .

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Wednesday, April 27th, 2005


Part-time Job..

Lately, I have thought of what I can do from now on.

It seems to me that I must do something while staying in my hometown. Sometimes I feel envious seeing people go to work or school every morning. To me, job always looks dull and poor in changing. But Now I feel like begining something new to fulfill myself. Well, although I DO have started helping housework and flowering, such stuffs I am capable of doing, I still can't help feeling empty when I am alone.

I am alwaying hoping to do something. But I may not do it in practice. It's not the time yet.
Actually, I am to go to hospital again after Golden Week. I'd better have a talk with Dr. M about my plan to start part-time job. It may sound ridiculous because my total purpose staying here is all for my rehabilitation. I'm supposed to stay at home all day and take easy. People here are worried about me, so my thought would strike them a lot with dismay. I don't want to see that..

Well, I'm worried too much. Our efforts would never down the drain. I won't make it either!!Cheer up. Keep on thinking positive!!


Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Shakespear's The WInter's Tale

Hey. Have somebody read Shaspear's The Winter's Tale?
I read somebody's essay about this masterpiece of Shakespear. It compared Autolycus with " the Subtle Shift", claiming they are similar in many points as the vice. What do you think of it?
I haven't read them yet, so i have no idea about that.
Somebody who know it would please tell me??

Saturday, April 23, 2005

Shopping in the mall

I wanted to blog what I did yesterday last night, but I gave up and decided to write it today because it is not good at my health to work too late. Sometimes, I have always wanted to finish one thing in one day, but now I know, it's more important to take it easy. Overwork would tell on our health!

Well, yesterday, I was really busy around. Watering the flowers in the garden at morning, going shopping with my mom at night. This is a life I may have longed for in my heart since I had been hospitalized. Simple, but sort of to my heart's content.One thing was different yesterday is we ( my mom and I) WALkED back to our home after finishing shopping. Usually, we would DRIVE to somewhere, but this time, we walked for exercise. I know it was all for my rehabilitation. Of course I was pleased at Ran's suggestion because I don't want to miss any chance to recover as soon as possible.

Okayama is a good place for people to live and relax because it is not as crowding as urban, Tokyo. Most of people here are easy going and kind. I was able to enjoy seeing high school students pedal their bicycles on their way home from school. In Tokyo, it is hardly to see because our most common transportation is train or subway. It doesn't seem to me that students would ride to their school. At least, I hadn't had a chance to have a look at this or more properly speaking, I DIDN'T bother myself to see this. I had been too busy with myself to notice them when in Tokyo. It is irreversible fact that I would have lost my heart because I had always been busy with my campus life and club. I had thought I would soon get used to it and both of schoolwork and club would be compatible since I had started to get my own place in Tokyo. But now I know I was totally wrong. I wasn't that strong as I had believed. This time, i got illness, and undoubtly, I DID lose my parents' faith on me. I have let them down so much. I am totally sorry for them and I think i have to take responsibility to them. What I have to do from now on?? Well, needless to say, learning to cook by myself and whole housework la! I never want to break the hearts of people I love again because of my selfish and childish. I would try my best to prove that I have learned so much from this lesson.So, please believe me, that I love you so much.


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Thursday, April 21, 2005

Hollywood Actress appeared in my garden!?


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Well, she is NOT an actress or so on. This woman is Ran, my mom. I was helping her out planting the flowers into plots and all she did was get fresh soil and fertilize the Bonsai I just had cultivated.

Bonsai♪


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At 5, I was called down to cultivate dwarf trees. The flowers were bought by Ran and I the day before yesterday and today we were to plant these colorful flowers into plots. I haven't done gardening for ages so I was able to enjoy planting these flowers. It seemed so joyful to me though the job itself took time and tired me a lot. However, it is worth because soon we will be able to see BEAUTIFUL BONSAI decorated in our garden!!I CAN'T WAIT it!!>0<

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Wednesday, April 20th, 2005


Distinction...

Today, I and Ran drove to Okadai hospital to have a check at 1:30pm.
The weather was rainy but that didn't influence our high tension at all. We are going to see Dr. H today! We haven't seen him for 20 days since my day out of hospital. It was exciting and full of expectation.

One thing out of our anticipation was that both of us forgot it was also a day I must take a blood sample!! I haven't had any preparation for that so I was nervous when being reminded of that by a receptionist. Fortunately, I didn't feel much pain because it got succuss at only one time. Because before when they got failed, I had to suffer horror wondering when on earth they would find my blood vessel properly. :-)

Although it took some time due to several mistakes, it was okay for me at all. I have already got used to it. Being awaited make no difference to me. Today we have another really important job. To go and see Dr. H!! Hence, I and Ran went to the ward as soon as things finished. Dr. H looked thinner than we had expected. He was working with his head down on the staff station so hard as not to notice I and Ran was standing in front of him. He seemed a little alarmed when he saw us. But shortly he gave us a comfortable smile and begain to explain some datas of blood test for us. I was greatly happy to see him but at the same time, I felt a little disappointed because we were unable to talk to each other as long as before we did when I had been hospitalized. Other staffs were looking and he had to work hard. He couldn't spare that much time to chat with us and that was the truth both Ran and I know exactly though we are SO HAPPY to see each other. I would like to see him outside of hospital but there seems we don't have that chance so far. He is a doctor, and I, one day have to leave for Tokyo to restart my campus life. Nothing should happen to us though we think of each other so much. I even don't know his phone number though I had dare passed him mine. Actually, I don't know about him at all. His age, life style, and anything private. I must have been a dreamer, wondering someday we would have a talk in a cafeteria. I thought we had a good time in the hospital, but once it passed, we owned nothing in our hands. All the things seemed so unrealistic for me. A long long happy dream..What I ought to do from now on is say goodbye to it and PRACTICE myself! Be more thoughtful and nice enough to get a man I love's heart. Ganbare!!!

Monday, April 18, 2005

Monday, April 18th, 2005

A Blessing in Disguise


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These days, I have always had something to do. Although I spend my time almost at my own home while others attend to their college, stangely I don't feel I am that lonely or dull at all. Enjoy my time seems to be an incentive for me to keep a good mind status.

Yesterday, I had my mom drive me to the station to see a friend I didn't see for a long time. Strictly speaking, the people I had an appointment with was my teacher rather than just one of my friends. He used to be my private tutor when I first came to Japan. He is a graduate student at Okayama University in current. We havn't met each other for approximately one year. But it didn't take much time to recognize one another. He looks younger in spite of his age. Ran convinced me that was because the man always look younger than their real age when I mentioned that.

Getting on the car, we reached at a surpermarket. Mr.K ( his name) walked directly to drink corner and bought some of them for me. He told me that I should take a lot of liquid because it is good for my kidney. I was surprised and moved by his thoughtful attention. His house doesn't change a lot except one thing that he comes to keep a pet, a dog really take to people easily. We talked about my disease and what I must be doing afterward. One word was truely impressive. In short, I should think positively and just be happy everyday. It is definitely correct cuz I have experienced too much while being hospitalized, I have learned how to be myself and thank to eveyday given to me. For me, this disease is a blessing in disguise for that I was given a chance to think my life again and what is really important to me.

What I am doing at home alone is reading and surfing sites on net. One thing different is what books I am reading are in Chinese. Honestly I didn't read any Chinese writen books for ages so when one of my friends recommended those books to me, I felt a little confused and reluctant. However, despite of my low expectation, I found I was enchanted with every sentence writen in vivid Chinese. I can have sympathy with every word and feel what author's would feel. It's some feelings I can't have when I read them in Japanese. This moment, I realize I have missed my mother tongue so much. It's a great deep impression when I encountered some touchable stories and words. Some that help you out a lot. I think I ought to get back something important that I have lost and missed.

Chinese Cuisine and music

While I finished blogging and was about to say hello to a friend online, I heard my name called by my mom. She told me to get prepare to get on her car. It was 7 o'clock, dinner time. So I asked where we were going. The answer back was Cui Yuan, a Chinese cuisine restaurant.

We haven't come all a way to eat Chinese food so I was wondering what taste it would be. You know what, as Japanese are proud of deliciousness of Sushi, Chinese are also particular about their nation's food outside their country. The waitress is a Chinese girl who speak fluent Japanese. Even the main customers are Chinese. It's such an interesting sight for me to see a Chinese man shout at the kitchen advising a cooker to add vinegar in a particular dish. And the waitress was just giggling at that man complaining. These are the most common and natural scenes you could see in any restaurant in China. And that remind me of most of dear memories when I was a child. It's undeniable it is China where I spent my childhood, I can't help feeling close to any Chinese who living in Japan. I don't care where part they are from, or who they are.

As to the music, I have got a CD also sung in Chinese. Most of them are hip pop and love song. Unlike J Pop, Chinese lyrics are repeated time by time. That make you feel it was like Enka, simple but easy to remember. I can put myself into the songs and feel them. It makes me comfortable although whatever quality and variety, J pop is all over China's. But I still feel like most movable songs are those sung in my native language. Easy remeber and easy to sing either.


Friday, April 15, 2005

My Walking Course


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This is a path near to my hourse. Green trees in two sideway, and

resident here enjoy their walking through this path. Once upon a time, I

used to walk my dog called maru. But since Maru's death one year ago,

the time I put my feet on it was inevitably in decline. This time I come

back to this place, I feel constantly comfortable and nostalgic.

Friday, April 15th, 2005

Sunshine! The weather today was perfect! And no worse than today's weather, I feel GREAT either! One of the happiest day today in my life!

Spring has completely come in Okayama. The sunshine is warm everyday and that makes me like to have a walk. There is always a path for people having a jogging or walking their dogs. The trees are getting green and flowers blossomed in various colors. I like the air of Okayama very much because here you could breathe fresh air very much and that relax you a lot. Here has no unnecessary troubles bothered you, no crowds of working people getting off the trains. Here all we have is nature, green, and warm-hearted people. Here is nearly an Utopia for me except for one thing. That is,, there are few YOUNG guys and girls all around!! All I can peer through from my veranda is elder or little children walking! Why? Well, that's quite simple cuz the guys as old as me are all going to the college or their work place la!!! HAHAHAHA!! Fantastic!

Um,, calm down. Let's go on to the main subject.
This afternoon, 11:30am ,we went to the hospital to see Dr. M as we did on last Friday. Having been told to take a blood sample within an hour before the appointment time 13:00, we arrived at the hospital eariler than last time. This time, five test tubes were taken. Amazingly I found that I got accustomed to blood taking enough to have a straight look at my blood being taken and flouring into the test tubes. No more queasy feelings I have. See I have become at least a little braver, ha. Finally blood test come out to prove my condition is getting better and better that even my doctor couldn't hide his surprisement. It seems I don't have to be hospitalized to have another treatment any longer. That relieve me and my family too much!! I am nearly as healthy as ordinary people!!! Joyful! Ran's dietary cure is getting succuss! Thank you, Ran!

Since we have enough time later, I was allowed to see my old friends in the ward. Today I was luck enough to see Dr. F! He is tall and really easy going.Sometimes it is dubious to me he is a
doctor! He is so FRIENDLY and easy talking person, just like a young boy. In fact he IS young enough la~~Why I said he is friendly because no sooner than I passed my result papers to him that he told me that he would call Dr. H to announce this happy news. His patient is doing well because of your devotion. I love all the staff in this ward! They are so000 kind. I don't want to be their patient again, but I would like to go closer to them if possible. That's one of my ambitions actually.




Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Tuesday, April 13th, 2005

Last night, Ran rode out to take developed pictures back to home in a windy and rainy weather.
She forgot having promised me to have my films developed, so when I asked her for those pictures, she groaned, " so..sorry, see what I have done! Wait, I will go out to take them back right now!" It was already close to 7pm, so I said " no, that's okay. It's fine you forgot that, we can take them tomorrow!" trying to stop her cuz outside was really chilly cold! But it's my mother's character, she insists on going out by herself then ran out. All I could do was just standing and wandering around the room.

A few minutes passed, Ran returned and threw a pack of developed films over me. I was quite appreciatily and thanked to her. Then I opened the pack happily seeing my memory jumping in front of as such colorful pictures! Those pictures were taken when I was in Tokyo and most of them are some with my friends in dormitory and club. The young and beautiful girls are in my pictures. Innocent smile, funny faces and archery are all so fulll of reality in front of me.There are no more distant now, I can feel truely I was once a member of them and loved my life in Tokyo. Although there was never all happy things but also some more frustration, trouble and depression. However, those minus emotions dispersed at sudden in seeing those lovely smile and innocent girls. At least, there is one fact is I did have a good and precious happy time with my friends while in Tokyo. That was definitely hopeful to me now.

So far, I and my mother are concerned about the demonstration erupted in major China cities during last weekend. It was ridiculous because this demo chances are against Japan. Watching Chinese crowds shouting out and throwing stones to Japanese embassy in China and some Japanese institutions, all Ran and me could do is dumefounded. Why can't our people act in more proper way to express their protest against this country!? How come they want to make things complicated? Violation can solve nothing, Japanese government would only think Chinese are such a rousy and rowdy nation. No good for sino-Japanese relation! What made my queesy is this demo was ignited and spreaded out by millions of netizens inChina, those people are literally dull. They catch this "Big Chance" then going to mess things up in a name of patriotism! A funny pastime! Everything is just chaotic and mass media in Japan is willing to broadcast such violating scencs again and again. So UGLY!! See China's main media even don't bother to refer to this demo. And all china's govenment said is a proper measure should be taken by Japan toward history problems and bid to permanent member of UN security concil. Yeah, that's cool right. Because Japan government ought to face up to the history, being responsible to all asian counties counterparts. But China should also be more..justic.



Sunday, April 10, 2005

Sunday, April 10th, 2005

the summary

I haven't been blogging for several days. The main reason for that is I have been busy with registering curriculum. Since my determination of having long rest within the first term, I have been always bothered with contemplating what course I ought to take in an attempt to achieve bottom 50 credits. So even though I am at home, I always have something to do with my PC.

So far, having almost finished all the registration, I decided to make my time for a while. I mean some entertainment like looking websites I want to visit and doing something I really like. Here, I want to sum up what happened to me during these days.

This Friday, it was the day I had an appointment with Dr. M at 1pm. It was my first time to
go to hospital as an outpatient. I was a sort of nervous while awaiting him. A few minutes passed 1am, at last it came my turn. I knocked the door and entered hearing " Come in". We haven't seen each other for a week since my petie discharge. At first, Dr. M showed us a result of blood test I took last Thursday while being hospitalized. It came out "almost" everything recovers well except of one suspicious virus, some problem with my lymphocyte Dr. H was quite worried when referring it to me before. The tone Dr. M spoke to us was keeping cool and so official. As status up, people seem to have some change in his attitude. I admire and respect Dr. H because he is really easy talking and warm-hearted. I can feel it. That day, I was dressing up looking forward to see Dr. H only to find out he was out on business. I should have known Friday and Saturday are his day out for another place, but I still can't hide my disappointment. Is being a patient an only way to meet her doctor!? That's awesome because I don't want to be a patient any longer. Really troublesome....

Yesterday, I went to drive with my mom designing to go see cherry blossom in the park. After a long drive, we couldn't reach the destination because we missed our way(^-^;) As a replacement, Ran and I went to video shop and watching rental video after coming back home. ShaoLin Soccer was funny. It told us not only comedy but also a courage to chase your dream!

Anyway, I am kind of sentimental these days. Too many things I ought to think and too many problems I have to cope with,,, Kyudo,credits, and friendship..something I have neglected for long time.

Saturday, April 09, 2005

Monday, April 04, 2005

Monday, April 4th, 2005

News in the World

There were exactly many things happened today.

First, surfing the internet, the headline of Pope John Paul Ⅱ dead at84 was first jumping up in front of me. I have heard he was in coma just the day before yesterday, so I was quite surprised to hear he passed away so soon!! It's a bitter news for all Catholic prayers in the world.

It didn't occur to me that "Blog" has taken Japan by storm untill I found this word in every site, like Yahoo and Hotmail. I tried reading the so-called "most being read" blogs realizing what make them so attractive to so many people. They seem to have same points in common. First at all, the bloggers always write in really witty way. What I found interesting is they depicted every talks, making like a dialogue. At the moment, I always wondered how could they remember every words they had in conversation! Second, its topic is full of entertainment. The bloggers deal the topics peole are concerned about. They take up some topics that eveybody knows and is interested in. They didn't bother to exposing themselves to us. For example, a housewife blogger would dare to tell us her family construction and every most natural family drama.
Last, and the most determining element, is the name of their blogs are quite unique. We tend to turn our attention to something unique or outstanding. The name of it always decides everything. I read the blogs because they have funny title, as Nikuman woman and etc. :0) Some titles that are not that tame and formal make me feel easy to close.

Well, turn to another page.

Today, my cousin Yukun came to my home. I haven't seen him for a while and he was getting taller thatn I had imagined. As a high grade elementary students, he is kind of taller boy. Is it beause of his club activity, valleyball? He plays well and has to jump really high. But, that doesn't matter. After all, he is always a little boy to me~~♪ He helped my mom clean the study room of me all a day. Wonder what I was doing when they are busywith walking around putting things aside? I was fixing my eyes on the screen of my note PC!! Don't blame me for not helping them. I did OFFER, but tragedly, I was REFUSED as soon as I just opened my mouth by Ran for fear of getting infection. Oh, my god. This beautiful woman is worried TOO MUCH LA!!! I cAn no longer bear that!!Gosh!





Sunday, April 03, 2005

♡Sunday, April 3rd, 2005♡

Getting used to the life in the hospital, I keep a rule to go to bed at 10pm and awake myself at 8 am even after I come back to my home.

However, only this morning, when I waked up looking around and was surprised to find it was half past 10 already! For a little while, i can't believe my eyes because I went to bed quite early last night. How come I would sleep so deeply and get up so late!!?? It's so soon for me to get back my real life. My anxiety about the later life seems not that difficult as I was worried before.

Unlike yesterday, I was allowed to go shopping with my mom. We drove to our usual boutique and enjoyed selective buying. It is long time no buying new clothes so we buy a lot of pretty clothes. I can see the clerk was smiling counting. Ran ( the name of my mom) frowned moaning money has flied~:-) That's no help cuz shopping is just like that~~♬ 30.000Yen for shopping and 8,000 Yen for Yakiniku a day, all that on my mom's treat! That's quite pain if I was on her shoes!! Unbelievable amount la~~~!! \(IoI)/ No wonder she is quite shocked when noticing the new clothes we wear are done by strong smell of smoke of Yakiniku!! Grinning.

What is different completely from before is the way my parents treat me. They seem too worried about my health as to pay attention to any movement of me. Especially Ran, getting to know my physical strength is not like before at least in current situation, extensively care about the whole thing around me too much. For example, my dad is chance to get cough, so he is prohibited to come too near to me. Wow, he is so pitty though that partly owes to me. Hahaha. But well, as a daughter, I feel anxious not little if dad won't get too cold at night because he is told to sleep at another bed away from us alone. All I can do is hope pollen season go away la~~(T-T) Just take care, people.

New term is started. Students are getting busy and active again. Wish you have a happy new term and don't work TOO HARD!! Something trouble you would be everywhere, but you guys just be yourself~~!! Make your time♩--Sincere wish from my♡ heart♡





Friday, April 01, 2005

Friday, April 1st, 2005

Spring has come!!! It is the season of encounter and farewell.

April's started. New nurse has come and old nurse would go to another place. It is Deai and Wakare. Whatever, we just go go go!!! Never look back or lost yourself in memories.

Right now, I am watching TV with my parents on Tatami. It might be certain for all of people, but for me, it is so PRECIOUS! I will cherish this moment with my parents. Six months holiday could be long, but it is a GOOD CHANCE for me to filial piety. Since I went to Tokyo, the time with my parents is getting shorter and shorter. Especially this time, i was getting this too sudden disease, it is no doubt my parents especially my mom would hope strongly and want me to stay at hometown and have a rest untill my health condition is stable. Um, it's..reasonable because I have neglected them so long and it comes time I should do something for my parents and also, myself. I made it in my mind firmly when I saw my mom dropped her tear saying goodbye to the nurses and doctors. I was shocked to see that scence because I know she is the last person to express her real emotion in front of people, even of her family. See she was EXTREMELY exhasuted and happy I left the hospital. It is the moment I reconfirm I was treasured a lot by her although the moment I was a little confused..and complicated..

Why I say my feeling is complicated, because i was made to rethink of my life. Any mindless minus word about my health like " my period finish so soon, is it because of the medicine I drink? I suspect it would last long..." would hurt people who care about my health.
No matter it is so mindless, I think i have to pay attention to my words. I would try..from now on.(^_^;) I don't want to make people I love sad any more.

★Friends in the hospital★


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Obachan in the same room♥


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These two photos qre the one with people I got along with in the hospital.

The little young girl in black is Yoko and the Obachan is my roommate. I took these pictures today before I leave the hospital.

As to Yoko, I got to know her just before a week. She was hospitalized just for a really short time. So today is the day both she and me left the hospital. It is a coincident, isn't it? Although we don't live together so long, but it makes no difficulty we became friends. You see she so small, but you won't even realize she is as old as me! We are both 19 years old! It might be impolite to say that when I first see her, i thought she was no more than a elementary school student because she looks so YOUNG!! But after I have a talk with her, I find she is much bigger than what she looks like! She is stronger than me in thought, mind status. From her, I learned how to think positively whenever what happening will occur to you.

Speaking of Obachan, she is a really sociable person. So I feel no trouble talking to her. What I remember clearly is at the night that Japan vs Bahrain soccer match that we fixed eyes on TV hurrahing " Great" when we saw Japan team finally made a historic point kicking ball into the gate! There is no age barrier between she and me.

Because of them, I was able to relax myself and have a good time. Nobody wants to be sick or even hospitalized, but making friends is also good way for your comfortable(?) hospital life.

Thursday, March 31, 2005

Thursday, March 31st, 2005

The day to leave the hospital was decided ater the meeting last night.

I will leave this place which I spent
88 days on Friday. However, I am not completely leaving the hospital. I would come back and be hospitalized again for another progressing treatment for two weeks.


Although it is still unclear, but I would probably have been absent from school for six months.
i was comtemplated that it is the best for complete rehabilitation. To tell thet truth, I am quite worried about that decision because i can't tell what will happen while I was on rest. What made me feel regretful is I have no plan how to spend my long "vacation"! I don't want to be drawn back far away. But it is my destiny. I should obey it. Yeah, I have to.

Of course, there is never all bad points being hospitalized for such a long time. Because of my sudden disease, I was deprived of my freedom studying at camplus and doing the Kyudo club. But it is also undeniable that I have also learned many precious things in the hospital. I learned coorporation, patience and thoughtfulness. Sometimes you must receive all the happening whether it is good or bad for you. You just don't deny it or even try to get away from it. As Jupitar's lyric, " it is not meaningless things happend on you. Then you will require how to think things in possitive way. Behave brightly, smile happily and people see it will give you more than you give!

Monday, March 28, 2005

Asaechi and me☆ミ


The beautiful girl on the right is Asaechi.

She is a nurse working at the hospital.

I took picture with her because today is the last day she would be in here.

According to her talk, two years ago, she came to here from Yamaguchi University Hospital as an exchange nurse.

And today her period in here is finished and she has to come back to where she belongs to. The place where, I think her families and people she loves live. I can deny I was sad that I couldn't see her bright smile and hear her laughing again, but I will hope for her good luck. Sobbing....

Saturday, March 26, 2005

Sunday, March 26th, 2005

What all the patients in the hospital would feel in common is the precious value of Health.
Since I was hospitalized, I could hear other patients, almost elders talk to their friends repeating " if only I was healthy, I would be doing~~" " Never had I imaged I would be weak so much when I was quite well" several times.
Whenver I hear these words, I feel my heart sunk cuz I had the same feeling with them. Even though it is said to be unknown what cause the disease I have, I could have taken care of myself and payed attention to my health condition. Sometimes I feel not so good because there are a few minus elements when you are in the hospital. The conversation of patients sometimes would make you down.
Some minus talks are like:
" my diabetes are getting worse due to the harmful aftereffects of the medicine"
or
" I have repeated being and left hospitals for several times, I wonder I would be like that in my life"

Well, it is irreversible you would hear such words as far as you are in the hospital when sharing each other's experience and status. Most of the time you would feel highly relieved because people here have same health problems and feelings with you that lead you not to be lonely.


Plus points and minus ones are all together. What I should do is get used to it and enjoy it:-)

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Rakdy and me


Rakdy and me
Originally uploaded by mikifu.

Rakdy and Kiyomi


Rakdy and Kiyomi
Originally uploaded by mikifu.

Wednesday, March 23th,2005


March, 23th,2005
Originally uploaded by mikifu.


Wednesday has finally come today! I woke up feeling my heart beat for excitement because today I am seeing my two good friends I haven't seen for a long time.

At 2:30pm, I got an e-mail from Rakdy( the left girl on the picture) that she and Kiyomi ( the girl on the right) had arrived at the hospital. When they appeared in front of me kind of sudden, I was amazed because I was brushing my teeth just then. At that time, the other roommates are just have their rest, I took them to the cafeteria where I am always having breakfast.

Time changes everything. Rakdy and Kiyomi all look prettier and younger then before. And they seem happy to see I am looking better. I felt sorry for them when I knew I had made them worry for me so much. Rakdy and Kiyomi showed me some pictures taken in Hiroshima, famously as Genbaku. I always envy them for visiting so many famous spots in Japan. But I am much relieved because it means they are able to enjoy themself in Japan.

After enjoying chatting for about two hours, we take some pictures when we leave. I won't forget this day ever. I appreciate them for bothering themself to see me from so far. Today it is the happiest day for me!

Monday, March 21, 2005

Thanks to my parents especially my mom☆


Thanks to my dad for fishing fresh fish for me almost everyday.

Thanks to my mom for taking these fish for my dinner time and tell her funny story to make me laugh and happy when I was knocked out down for every little thing.

Since I was down for a too sudden disease and hospitalized, my parents especially my mom never have failed to come to see me and take care of me. Thanks to them, I rarely feel lonely and was able to make dozens of friends with nurses and doctors. It is never forgetable for me that mom took care of me living with me in the same room for nearly one month while I was incredibly sick. She is the only person who is always beside with me and support me when bothe my body and mind are getting weak.

Luckily, the hard time has gone and right now, I was almost as healthy as common people. But for my parents, I would probably down completely. Thanks, dad and Mom! I love you~~

Monday, March 21, 2005


Three Straight Holidays

All the nation people have three straight holidays from last Saturday to this Monday. And here, the hospital is not exception.

This morning, as soon as I wake up, I was told to wait for a while untill my doctor ( we call him Hana-chan) come take my blood for a sample. I was a bit surprised to hear that at first because as we know, taking blood is generally the job of nurses. Despite of that unexpecting news, I cheered yes! in my heart for being given a chance to have a talk with Hana-chan.

However, twenty minutes past 8, I didn't catch the sight of Hana-chan. I was kind of suspicious because I know blood-taking is to be done before breakfast which is prepared at 8. Breakfast time is come, but Hana-chan still didn't appear. Finally I pushed nurse call and asked if I could eat my breakfast. Then I got to know that he hasn't come to the stuff station yet. Which hit it at home that it is holiday today so there are not enough nurses. Doctors are also allowed not to work today. What is more, judging from my experience here, earlist,doctors would not come to work before 8 but for emergency. Well, of course Hana-chan did come and take blood before I have lunch time. Anyway, I was happy to see him and we had a ball.

Sometimes, when I see stuffs ( doctors, nurses or cleaners) come to hospital and do their jobs at the same place and do same things every day, I can't help wondering if they don't feel dull for their job. How many people do really find meaning as to their work? They are all busy around and they all seem not to have their own times. At least in my case, I want freedom even when I was graduate and go to the society and work.

Saturday, March 19, 2005

baseball boys in the field


baseball boys in the field
Originally uploaded by mikifu.

kindergarden in Okadai ver.2


kindergarden in Okada ver.2
Originally uploaded by mikifu.


The weather in Okayama is very changeable and unpredictable just like a baby.

It tends to be chilly in the morning and hot and humid in a daytime. And that makes me eager to go out and relax. The world outside seems much more attractive to me than usual. When on earth can I leave the hospital? If I am in the hospital longer than ever, I am afraid I would probably come to be a member of here completely and what is worse would not like to return to the reality once I used to live in. This thought leaves me annoyed and....irritated.

Well, I am not always worried, I have also truely happy experience these days. As getting a new cellular phone, chatting with the people I love and of course sleeping and etc. However here, I am going to tell a happening yesterday that bothered me quite much.

Since I was beside myself with joy of possessing my so-called high tech cellular phone, I was as foolish as to send to wrong address. I mean I have e-mailed to two different people. One is a friend of mine in my dormitory, (that's fine to me) but .. the other is a senior!! of mine in my club!!which made me to apologize twice..I was really paniked and ashamed at that. I think I ought to sit down thinking well before I act. Hehe.

Today I can't see Hana-chan ( my doctor's nickname) and I am boring.That's why I am writing diary or taking some pictures outside the window. And the upper pictures are kindergarden and field belong to Okadai. I envy these children for chatting and running as freely as could be. I nearly forget the days I devoted myself to Kyudo and campus life. Sadly, but it is true. Whatever, one thing I can confirm for myself is that no matter what would happen in the future, I never want to lose the friends I got in my club.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Wednesday, 16th, 2005 ж Sunnyж

This morning, my blood was taken for sample and I realized a truth that once you get accustomed to something, you won't be feared. What I want to say is i completely got used to blood test and I felt no pain for that. I can hardly recall the days when I was too nervous and frightened to sleep well a few minutes before blood taking. Once you get used to, you fear nothing.

Today I accomplished one great goal. I had a good company with the other three patients. As I had mentioned on last post, I was the youngest one in the room and I thought it hard to communicate with them. However, for a blessiong chance, we had a real good mood and talked about each other's state of disease. We shared some feeling in common.

Besides, there are two happening made me happy.

One is that the needle on my neck for dip infusion was finally pulled out today because blood test proved virus was completely out of my body. Whatever, the doctor I like very much promised me. I was happy today because I could spend time with him longer than ever.

The other is that I was allowed to go out of hospital in a day! It is the first time I got this permission. So tomorrow I am planning to change my celluar phone with my hands really touching them and decide which one to buy instead of choosing it on catalog. Even though I still feel exhausted more easily than healthy people, I am excited and looking forward to breath fresh air! I was being waited for this day too long. It gave me the confidence that I will be better soon and leave the hospital.

Monday, March 14, 2005

Baghdad Burning< original version>


Baghdad Burning< original version>
Originally uploaded by mikifu.

Baghdad Burning < Japanese version>


Baghdad Burning
Originally uploaded by mikifu.


I happened to find this book on the internet. This book is about a blog which is written by a Iraqi woman. It tells us the mundane fact of Iraq after the War. I was totally shocked when I read it because I can feel her anger, sadness, and despair against against the interim governing council ("the puppet government") and Bush and his administration.

After reading her daily blog, I have changed my thought toward Iraq and also, of course American government. Only the people in war place know the tragedy and fact of what they are put in. Some foreign media tend to report in their favor. Something that is not so favorable for them is deleted or edited. And such media are always effected by their nation government. NHK ( Japanese nation broadcasting) 's editing chaos is a good example for that. We have a right to know the truth and what is really happened in the world.

I am still keeping reading Riverbend's ( the girl's nickname) blog. It is hard for me because I feel my heart is broken whenever I read it. There are so many things that I don't know but that we should all know as a member of this earth. What should I do for them? I ask myself in my heart. Ah, i'm sad now...really...

Riverbend's blog URL.

http://www.riverbendblog.blogspot.com/

Friday, March 11, 2005

Friday, March, 2005

Friday and Saturday are kind of special days for me.
They are the days that I can't see my doctor because he is away on business for two days. So instead of him, there is always another doctor comes to patient room and check my health condition. Although he is completely different type from my docotor, but I find he is also a interesting person. That's really a lucky thing for me.
But somehow, I know I feel most relaxed when I have a conversation with my docotor. When I talk with him, I am no doubt spending the most happy time. It's a good way for your health and I believe it will help me fight with the disease since the state of your mind decides everything.
That's all what I learned in the hospital.
Another thing I have learned in the hospital is the spirit of
coorporation.
Since I am never a cooporative person before, I had a hard time to live with completely strange patients in the same room. Besides, we are all in different age zone. The most of patients are all over 30 or 50 years old. Different value decides the life style here. They get up at 6 and go to bed at 9~10. Perfect regular life style!! Thanks to it, I come to get up at the same time unconsciously. As a minority and a youth, I feel obligation to behave correctly.
It's not a easy business but well, I think I will try since I never want to hear they grumble like " Oh, I can't stand the bad manner of the youth of today! I can't ever imagine it in our time!" and bla bla. Um, it's difficult..really.

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

My Diary in the Hospital

Hello, everyone! What's up? It's been a long time no updated my blog because of my disease.
Maybe somebody have already known why. Yes, I have been hospitalized in my hometown Okayama since the start of January.
It was quite rare and weird experience for me because it was my first time to spend the new year in the hospital.
Well, as I was allowed to use my computer in the room, I decided to keep a diary in apple-peace blog.
So now, I'm writing what happened today in my diary.
This morning, I had a regular blood test to check my state of health. What made me feel relieved was that the result wasn't going bad. I am looking forward the day I can leave the hospital and have a new start of my life of campus. I can't wait it!!
Anyway, even though I hate the truth I am a patient, but I Like all the stuffs of this hospital.
They are really kind to me everyday and I am lucky because my doctor is really handsome and a gentleman. I like him and I'd like to keep a contact even after I leave the hospital. If it is possible, I am definitely the most happy girl in the world!! What is more, I am feeling good today
because he called me Miki Chan instead of ~San!! It Is the first time he called me that way.
I can't believe it for a while and that's why I was SO Happy today!
Hehe, everything will be fine after you get through hard days.
That's what I learnt in my hospital life.




Monday, December 27, 2004

How did you spend your X'mas?

Hello, everyone! How did you spend y0ur X'mas? Someone that have boyfriends would have a romantic night. And Someone that are single like me..also could enjoy X'mas! There are exactly many ways to spend a fun Christmas!

As for me, On Christmas Eve, I went to Dojyo to practice Kyudo with my teammates. At 1:30pm, we had lunch at Mos Burger Restaurant. As a special menu, we ordered five pieces of chicken and got a pink bear toy. We had a fun a lot.

And finally Christmas came! I, with the same mebers went to Fuchinobe Theater to see Howl's moving castle at 11:45. It was the second time for me to see this movie. But I liked the movie so much that I was able to enjoy it again. The girls seeing it were all content at it! And we all agreed that the dog appeared in the movie was so CUTE!! We can't stop love him!

After seeing the movie, the girls decided to go to my room. So we rented " Cutty Blond" at Tsutaya and saw it at my room. However, a unexpected happenings occured to us! We had both Japanese and English subtitles! And what is worse, English one lays on Japanese one so we couldn't see Japanese subtitles. Because Elle, the heroine is a typical American fast speaker.
We were busy at cathing up the whole meanings of words.

Well, these are the ways I spent my X'mas. Merry Christmas! And Have a nice year! ☆

Sunday, December 26, 2004

knitting


knitting
Originally uploaded by mikifu.
It is getting colder and colder. I am not that strong at coldness. So I have started knitting since last month.

I am knitting a muffler for myself.
Whenver I go out the street, I feel extremely chilly over my neck. All I need is nothing but a warm muffler!

It takes time to finish it. And I will try my best and decide to finish it during winter. I am looking forward to it!!

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

Christmas Special Menu

Last night, I had a X'mas special dinner in my dormitory.

We had really gorgeous menu exactly. We had the leg of Turkey, a piece of Chocolate cake,
and spicy curry rice.

Every food seemed so Christmas! I got full very much and I enjoyed my dinner!

Friday, December 17, 2004

One little happening tonight.

Hi, eveyone.
I am living in a student dormitory in Machida.
We have breakfast, dinner from Monday to Saturday. And we can have bath or get shower every day in public bath. So the life in dormitory gives us comfortable feelings just like we are at our own home. We are never troubled by buying food to eat or something.
Eveything is okay but except of only ONE problem that is unavoidable to face. That is FREEDOM! Every dormitory has its curfew! In the dormitory, we are supposed to come back by 11:00pm. At first I thougt of nothing, because I believed I would never come back after curfew.
However, a few weeks ago, I DID it. I went to Maihama to go to after SIX Disney Land with my friends. We did have a fun time. But when it turned to 10pm, I knew my face suddenly got pale. I would not make myself back to the dormitory in time. Because Maihama is never that close to Machida. It takes us more than one hour to get to it.
After hesitating for a while, I finally made up my mind calling to the manager in the dormitory. No doubt he was quite angry. But somehow I managed to persuade him not to lock the front door until i come back.
Since that, the relation between the manager and me have become a little strained. Of course I feel sorry for him, but I was giving much more thought to my freedom. It is not that easy thing especially for University students to not to go out late. I am in Kyudo club and sometimes i am to be staying late.
Tonight, however, my thought got a little changed. When I prepared to take a shower and down to the stair, I saw the manger and his wife were sitting on the sofa in dark. It was almost near to 12:00pm. No sooner than they saw me, the manager asked me abruptly, " Miss Kawakami, how do you say " you should come back by 11:00pm on time" in Chinese?" Yes, they were waiting for a Taiwanese girl to come back. They were waiting for her for about one hour. I suddently reminded of the truth I also HAD MADE them wait for me late at night. That time, I felt extremely sorry and regret I wasn't able to think at their side. I was only worried about myself instead of realizing I was bothering some people without self consciousness. That was a terrible thing.
I didn't know I was so selfish. I should have been more thoughtful. All I know today is that Freedom comes with responsibility. I think I must not forget it and bear it in my mind.

Thursday, 16th December, 2004

Today, it was a normal day. Nothing special had happened.
Maybe life is just like this. I do expect something special event happening to me almost everyday. I am dreaming of it all around when I am alone at home.
But things don't always go the way you want it to.
I know it. But somebody great said if you lose your hope. Hope is just like the oxygen, without hope, you will get despaired, and faint.
So I decide to keep on hoping.
Live my every day.
Life is beautiful.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Happy Birthday to Me~~♪

Friday, December 10th was my birthday! I am 19 year-old now! It was also the day I said farewell to 18~~Ah, now I feel so complicated. What on earth did I do last year? What did 18 year-old mean for me? And how should I spend my 19? The age of 19 is the last year as an teenager. I am not ready to be an adult yet. (^_^;)

By the way, today, it was a great day for me. On saturday, i went to Kyudo club and practiced hard as usual. And when I finished the club, i was called to come to the circle of all my fellow peers, then at sudden the applause was occured. Happy Birthday to Miki!!♪ They cheered all together! I was surprised because I never thought I would have so many people celebrate my birthday. I felt extremely happy and moved. Today it was the last day of our regular practice in 2004. And it absolutely became one of my most unforgettable day~♪ I want to say to everyone that Thank You All A Lot!

Christmas is coming up soon. I haven't decided how to spend it yet. I am thinking of going see Howl's moving castle again with my peers in Kyudo club, or coming back to my hometown Okayama spend time with my parents~I have a few choices♪So what is everyone's plan of X'mas?


BARBABAPA!


BARBABAPA!
Originally uploaded by mikifu.
Here is my Birthday Present I got on Saturday. It is a RED Barbabapa! I love the color of Red, because red means passion! I like this very much~

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

800 arrows in two months!!

Hello guys. How is everyone doing these days? Last Sunday, it was INCREDIBLY HOT, and the highest temperature was 28C!! I can't believe it! It is winter now!! No doubt that GLOBAL WARMING is proceeding day by day. But it is winter after all. The day time is warm and when it gets dark it get chily. So people should take coats or wear warm for it.☆

Well, let's return to the main topic this time. Maybe some people already know that I am in Kyudo club? We practice Kyudo very hard twice a week, Wednesday and Saturday. Except the regular practice, we would usually go to routine sport centers together to play Kyudo. So it is not difficult to have a chance to see us with two meters high archery in the campus. Actually TODAY I have brought my own archery to the school~=

As we are to have two months holiday, we would not have played Kyudo in the club since next week. It's good to have a long vacation...BUT!! The leader of our club has made an goal to all of the members! That is to shoot 800 arrows during the holiday!! You know, Kyudo is an martial art that need physical strength. We normally only shoot 4 arrows in one Tachi ( stand). And 800 means we should do 200 tachi in total!! Our seniors said it was never a big deal and that it was no more than a piece of cake!! But to us, freshman, it is NEVER that easy!! Just last Sunday, I went to the Dojyo and was playing Kyudo for over 8 hours. However, I was only able to shoot 65 arrows on that day..(>~<) What is more, we have to pay 200 yen in every two or three hours..it is not free..which means if i don't work dead harder, i would come to use enormous amount of money!!

Um,,this time i got a little excited...sorry. But it never changes my mind that I still LOVE KYUDO!! Well, ehen,, I will go to practice Kyudo after finishing 4 period!! For my fairly Kyudo~~Forever~~♪Cheers!!☆☆☆


Sunday, December 05, 2004

Christmas Tree in Disneyland!


Christmas Tree in Disneyland!
Originally uploaded by mikifu.
I wish you a merry christmas, you wish your merry christmasâ™Âª

X'mas is coming up! And Disney won't miss it of course! It was a quite large tree!! I am sorry my camera phone is out of date, that it wasn't able to express the beauty of the tree! But never mind, just feel Christmas!

Mickey and his girl friend


Mickey and his girl friend
Originally uploaded by mikifu.

This is the picture I took in Disney Land this Wednesday. I went to there with my friends at 6 o'clock at night, so it was really dark that day.

It was my first time to visit Disney Land, and I liked it very much!!

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Howl's moving castle


Howl's moving castle
Originally uploaded by mikifu.
Last weekend, I went to Fuchinobe theater to see Howl's moving Castle. It was great.

People going see this are almost with family. Of course it included children and little BABIES!! Young parents made themself busy with gathering the cusion on the seat so that little babies could have a view of movie. That was quite interesting to me. Howl is really popular among wild age zone.

Kimutaku's voice was also really charming. He actually did very well in playing Howl. I was satisfied with that.

So what do you feel about this movie? Did you see it already? Tell me your feelings about this movie~

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

cat


cat
Originally uploaded by mikifu.
Um..you know what, not only human can speak..Cats have their own language which our humanbeing can't understand. From their conversation, you will see how cats communicate..Just, ,,have a fun~~

Friday, November 19, 2004

About my part time job\(゜ロ\)(/ロ゜)/

Hello everyone! How did you spend your day on Tuesday? I did my part time job at a factory again. This time, I was mainly putting together celluar phones as the last job. This time, it was much easier and not that tiring compared to the last time.

In the moring on Tuesday, I got up in 6 o'clock and left home for the office in 6:40! I thought I was the last person to be an early bird, but in case it was a job with responsibility, I had to keep my appointment. I was first told to wait at the office from 7 to 10 in order to go to the facotory instead of people those who are absent. While I was reading " Umibe No Kafuka" by Murakami Haruki , I was nervous because I couldn't help wondering if i would be called next time. So i wan't completely able to put all my concentration on reading the novel. And at last, I was told to go to the factory at once..Although I had thought to go back home in 10 and sleep again. (ーー;)

However I knew I had no time to worry too much, all i had to do is to concentrate and finish my job. When i arrived at the site, I was surprised that almost all the workers were so young, not that older than us. The girls did everything briskly and the girl who was as young as me also had a good leadership ability. I respected her in that and I realized that Experience tells everything. It makes no different if you are older or younger. It is important to learn some things that you could never do in the campus. This Tuesday, I saw how people worked efficiently and figured out what is the real "Syakaijin". It is always with our responsibility. And what we can do from now on is to find our own way to prepare to be a Syakaijin. That's more important than just earning money, at least I think.



Hana Yori Dango


Hana Yori Dango
Originally uploaded by mikiyan.
Have you read Manga series ? You may have heard that its drama made by Taiwan is now on air in Japan at 10pm every Saturday! The girl in the middle is Tsukusi and F4 members!

Thursday, November 18, 2004

Feel Like An Idol☆ミ

Last Tuesday, I went back home from school earlier than ever because I had an appointment with the manager of dormitory in which I live. A few days ago, I was asked to come back by 6:00pm to have an interview in dormitory. Since I hadn't been informed much about that stuff, I was kind of excited and interested.

After I come back to the dormitory, I saw two men in black suits waiting for us. Yes, I was to be interviewed about the life about student dormi with the other girl. At first, I thought it would be finished if interview was done, but later I foud out that the main purpose is to advertise the dormitory and put new introduction in homepage of dormi for the new comers next year. Therefore, we were required to be the models of the dormi, then was taken lots of photos that would be uploaded in the website. We were asked to smile happily and do some seems-like natural pose, which I think it would look more unnatural. Hehe. What confused us is when they asked us to read a magazine together and have a look at camera. You know, it sounded quite impossible because we can't concentrate on two things at once!

Anyway, we had an interesting experience and had a fun exactly. That day, it made me feel as if I was an idol and an Actress! :-)

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

☆Kyudo☆, my forever dream and entertainment♪

Today, I am going to talk about Kyudo ( Japanese Archery). What do you peoople think of Kyudo? Well, I started Kyudo when I enrolled in the university. Do you remember the day when every club and circle trying hard to invite freshmen to join their club when we first went to this campus? As I was wandering around the campus alone, I was talked into going to Dojo watch how they practice Kyudo. I soon got interested in it because I was totally attracted by the cool dress of Kyudo ( Hakama and Dogi). Although the color they wear has only white and black, but it was enough to promopte me to start a complete NEW thing.

People may think Kyudo is no more than a traditional, Japanese Budo( martial art). But it also provides you with a great chance to develope your spirit, and patience. Of course when you shoot the bow aiming at the Mato( target), you should put all of your concentration at Mato. It gives you great joy when your bow( ya) hit the Mato. That's why there are so may people that can't help themselves stop Kyudo like me~

However, our bows don't always go straight into Mato. Every move is key point to decide which direction your bow will fly to. Kyudo doesn't only require the basic knowledge but also your high attention in every move. Sometimes it bothers me a lot because even I know what I am wrong in my technique, but once I want to correct it in real move, it always doesn't go smoothly for me. So a good posture is really important. For example, if you move your shoulders too up and your left elbow goes strange, you may probably hurt your own elbow by bow rubbing it. So I sometimes get bruised in my elbow. (-^-;) Hehe, so everybody just be carefull~~That do develpe your spiritu and patience, don't you think so? :-)

PS: Here is my club's URL. Please check it out~~

http://aguk.fc2web.com/


Saturday, October 30, 2004

Friday, October 29, 2004

Friday, October, 2004

This morning, as soon as I finished my breakfast, I got preparing and went to register the short part-time job. When I arrived in the office, I was quite nervous but fortunately the stuff there was really easy going person so I was able to talk really in a really relaxing atomosphere. We was talking for about one hour and I put reservation what time and when I can go to work.

It's the first time for me to do a part time job. Frankly speaking, I don't lack of that much money. All I want to do is learn some precious experience through the job. What bothered me at first is that my mother doesn't agree me to do any part-time job while I am in the university. In her opinion, part time job is never an easy job and really worrisome thing that demand you too many elements like patience, tolerence and strong will against the pressures. I can't totally disagree with her and what is more I understand what makes her think so. In her situation, language barrier does exist. She can't speak Japanese that fluently because she is originally Chinese. So it is unavoidable that some problems in communication would happen. And some misunderstanding in working with the other coworkers occasionally made her depressive. But I DECIDED to do some short part time job because I want to do it. My mom did go through tough time, and I think I can learn some thing from her experience.

By the way, Aoyama Festival is coming up! Let's enjoy it all together! Have a nice holiday""

Monday, October 25, 2004

stacie_1280_1024


stacie_1280_1024
Originally uploaded by
mikifu.
Stacie Orrico is one of my favorite singers! I love her voice very much!

Monday, October25th. 2004

Hello! Today I have another news to tell everybody. I went to Fuchinobe theater and saw "Vanhelsing"! It seemed it was the last day that this film would be on air today, so I decided to go to the theater with my friend in the third period. In order to see the film, I bothered to skip the class in the third period.(^_^;) Hehe. But anyway, "Vanhelsing "
deserved it. It was actually worth while making time to see the film. At least, it IS in my case.

Here, I want to introduce the main st0ry of " Vanhelsing" in brief. It is the story about terrific war between manster hunter Vanhelsing and the vampires led by Dracula. Hugh Jackman's marvelous performance and the dynamic scenes are all the great points to check. The best finction movie will definitely make you feel excited!

Well, I am looking forward to hearing from eveyone who have seen this film. And please tell me how you feel about it. Thank you!

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Saturday,October 23rd, 2004

This morning, as usual as I do in Saturday, I got up early at 6:30am for my Japanese Archery club. In our University, we don't have a Kyudo Dojo, so you can image how inconvenient it is. But anyway, we get totaly used to this way. Even though we are to pay money for the ticket.

Here, I want to introduce a REALLY INTERESTING book to all of you people. It's the novel with the tytle " Trinity Blood" It's the story about the battle between humanbeings and vampires! The hero of this story, however, himself is a vampire that suck vampire's blood. That's quite beyond the imagination. People who get interested in this can click the URL I offer. You can see the beautiful pictures of the heros and the characters in this story. The pictures are in the Banken category.

http://babu.jp/~cross/top.htm

Monday, October 18, 2004

Babyclone??


babyclone
Originally uploaded by mikifu.
Clone, a forever hot topic can be used in humor too.:-)

Anispy Cats

They are so cute!! I hope people seeing this picture will have more smile~~


Anispy Cats
Originally uploaded by mikifu.

Do you figure out why the second cat from right thinks " I thinks there is a spy among us"? Yes, the left animal looks like a cat at the first sight, but if you look carefully, you will find out what makes the cat suspicious about.:-)

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Sonny! i, Robot!


Sonny! i, Robot!
Originally uploaded by mikifu.
Huhuhu. Here comes Sonny~!

I had hardly seen the movie when I uploaded this picture on my desktop. As I had mentioned before, i, Robot is my favorite movie so far.

I recommend everybody to have a watch this movie. Because it is not just a SF film, but also worth thinking deeply about the relationship between human and high technology civilization as robots.

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

Ariel


Ariel
Originally uploaded by mikifu.
It is the pannel displayed during the school festival in my senior high school.
What special in this pannel is that the funny face fishes
.

About the three items..

Nowadays, technology is everywhere. People can't live without it. Master card, copying and Internet are all the symbols of human civilization. In the short, they are all the evidence that show the difference between humanbeing and animals. >

In additon, the three items are similar in the point that they are all the consequence of the invention of Language!
Language itself is invention. People invent technology to fill up the flaw of their bad at memorizing things by language.