Wednesday, March 23th,2005

March, 23th,2005
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Wednesday has finally come today! I woke up feeling my heart beat for excitement because today I am seeing my two good friends I haven't seen for a long time.

At 2:30pm, I got an e-mail from Rakdy( the left girl on the picture) that she and Kiyomi ( the girl on the right) had arrived at the hospital. When they appeared in front of me kind of sudden, I was amazed because I was brushing my teeth just then. At that time, the other roommates are just have their rest, I took them to the cafeteria where I am always having breakfast.

Time changes everything. Rakdy and Kiyomi all look prettier and younger then before. And they seem happy to see I am looking better. I felt sorry for them when I knew I had made them worry for me so much. Rakdy and Kiyomi showed me some pictures taken in Hiroshima, famously as Genbaku. I always envy them for visiting so many famous spots in Japan. But I am much relieved because it means they are able to enjoy themself in Japan.

After enjoying chatting for about two hours, we take some pictures when we leave. I won't forget this day ever. I appreciate them for bothering themself to see me from so far. Today it is the happiest day for me!

Thanks to my parents especially my mom☆

Thanks to my dad for fishing fresh fish for me almost everyday.

Thanks to my mom for taking these fish for my dinner time and tell her funny story to make me laugh and happy when I was knocked out down for every little thing.

Since I was down for a too sudden disease and hospitalized, my parents especially my mom never have failed to come to see me and take care of me. Thanks to them, I rarely feel lonely and was able to make dozens of friends with nurses and doctors. It is never forgetable for me that mom took care of me living with me in the same room for nearly one month while I was incredibly sick. She is the only person who is always beside with me and support me when bothe my body and mind are getting weak.

Luckily, the hard time has gone and right now, I was almost as healthy as common people. But for my parents, I would probably down completely. Thanks, dad and Mom! I love you~~

Monday, March 21, 2005

Three Straight Holidays

All the nation people have three straight holidays from last Saturday to this Monday. And here, the hospital is not exception.

This morning, as soon as I wake up, I was told to wait for a while untill my doctor ( we call him Hana-chan) come take my blood for a sample. I was a bit surprised to hear that at first because as we know, taking blood is generally the job of nurses. Despite of that unexpecting news, I cheered yes! in my heart for being given a chance to have a talk with Hana-chan.

However, twenty minutes past 8, I didn't catch the sight of Hana-chan. I was kind of suspicious because I know blood-taking is to be done before breakfast which is prepared at 8. Breakfast time is come, but Hana-chan still didn't appear. Finally I pushed nurse call and asked if I could eat my breakfast. Then I got to know that he hasn't come to the stuff station yet. Which hit it at home that it is holiday today so there are not enough nurses. Doctors are also allowed not to work today. What is more, judging from my experience here, earlist,doctors would not come to work before 8 but for emergency. Well, of course Hana-chan did come and take blood before I have lunch time. Anyway, I was happy to see him and we had a ball.

Sometimes, when I see stuffs ( doctors, nurses or cleaners) come to hospital and do their jobs at the same place and do same things every day, I can't help wondering if they don't feel dull for their job. How many people do really find meaning as to their work? They are all busy around and they all seem not to have their own times. At least in my case, I want freedom even when I was graduate and go to the society and work.

baseball boys in the field

baseball boys in the field
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kindergarden in Okadai ver.2

kindergarden in Okada ver.2
Originally uploaded by mikifu.

The weather in Okayama is very changeable and unpredictable just like a baby.

It tends to be chilly in the morning and hot and humid in a daytime. And that makes me eager to go out and relax. The world outside seems much more attractive to me than usual. When on earth can I leave the hospital? If I am in the hospital longer than ever, I am afraid I would probably come to be a member of here completely and what is worse would not like to return to the reality once I used to live in. This thought leaves me annoyed and....irritated.

Well, I am not always worried, I have also truely happy experience these days. As getting a new cellular phone, chatting with the people I love and of course sleeping and etc. However here, I am going to tell a happening yesterday that bothered me quite much.

Since I was beside myself with joy of possessing my so-called high tech cellular phone, I was as foolish as to send to wrong address. I mean I have e-mailed to two different people. One is a friend of mine in my dormitory, (that's fine to me) but .. the other is a senior!! of mine in my club!!which made me to apologize twice..I was really paniked and ashamed at that. I think I ought to sit down thinking well before I act. Hehe.

Today I can't see Hana-chan ( my doctor's nickname) and I am boring.That's why I am writing diary or taking some pictures outside the window. And the upper pictures are kindergarden and field belong to Okadai. I envy these children for chatting and running as freely as could be. I nearly forget the days I devoted myself to Kyudo and campus life. Sadly, but it is true. Whatever, one thing I can confirm for myself is that no matter what would happen in the future, I never want to lose the friends I got in my club.

Wednesday, 16th, 2005 ж Sunnyж

This morning, my blood was taken for sample and I realized a truth that once you get accustomed to something, you won't be feared. What I want to say is i completely got used to blood test and I felt no pain for that. I can hardly recall the days when I was too nervous and frightened to sleep well a few minutes before blood taking. Once you get used to, you fear nothing.

Today I accomplished one great goal. I had a good company with the other three patients. As I had mentioned on last post, I was the youngest one in the room and I thought it hard to communicate with them. However, for a blessiong chance, we had a real good mood and talked about each other's state of disease. We shared some feeling in common.

Besides, there are two happening made me happy.

One is that the needle on my neck for dip infusion was finally pulled out today because blood test proved virus was completely out of my body. Whatever, the doctor I like very much promised me. I was happy today because I could spend time with him longer than ever.

The other is that I was allowed to go out of hospital in a day! It is the first time I got this permission. So tomorrow I am planning to change my celluar phone with my hands really touching them and decide which one to buy instead of choosing it on catalog. Even though I still feel exhausted more easily than healthy people, I am excited and looking forward to breath fresh air! I was being waited for this day too long. It gave me the confidence that I will be better soon and leave the hospital.

Baghdad Burning< original version>

Baghdad Burning< original version>
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Baghdad Burning < Japanese version>

Baghdad　Burning
Originally uploaded by mikifu.

I happened to find this book on the internet. This book is about a blog which is written by a Iraqi woman. It tells us the mundane fact of Iraq after the War. I was totally shocked when I read it because I can feel her anger, sadness, and despair against against the interim governing council ("the puppet government") and Bush and his administration.

After reading her daily blog, I have changed my thought toward Iraq and also, of course American government. Only the people in war place know the tragedy and fact of what they are put in. Some foreign media tend to report in their favor. Something that is not so favorable for them is deleted or edited. And such media are always effected by their nation government. NHK ( Japanese nation broadcasting) 's editing chaos is a good example for that. We have a right to know the truth and what is really happened in the world.

I am still keeping reading Riverbend's ( the girl's nickname) blog. It is hard for me because I feel my heart is broken whenever I read it. There are so many things that I don't know but that we should all know as a member of this earth. What should I do for them? I ask myself in my heart. Ah, i'm sad now...really...

Riverbend's blog URL.

http://www.riverbendblog.blogspot.com/

Friday, March, 2005

Friday and Saturday are kind of special days for me.
They are the days that I can't see my doctor because he is away on business for two days. So instead of him, there is always another doctor comes to patient room and check my health condition. Although he is completely different type from my docotor, but I find he is also a interesting person. That's really a lucky thing for me.
But somehow, I know I feel most relaxed when I have a conversation with my docotor. When I talk with him, I am no doubt spending the most happy time. It's a good way for your health and I believe it will help me fight with the disease since the state of your mind decides everything.
That's all what I learned in the hospital.
Another thing I have learned in the hospital is the spirit of coorporation.
Since I am never a cooporative person before, I had a hard time to live with completely strange patients in the same room. Besides, we are all in different age zone. The most of patients are all over 30 or 50 years old. Different value decides the life style here. They get up at 6 and go to bed at 9~10. Perfect regular life style!! Thanks to it, I come to get up at the same time unconsciously. As a minority and a youth, I feel obligation to behave correctly.
It's not a easy business but well, I think I will try since I never want to hear they grumble like " Oh, I can't stand the bad manner of the youth of today! I can't ever imagine it in our time!" and bla bla. Um, it's difficult..really.

My Diary in the Hospital

Hello, everyone! What's up? It's been a long time no updated my blog because of my disease.
Maybe somebody have already known why. Yes, I have been hospitalized in my hometown Okayama since the start of January.
It was quite rare and weird experience for me because it was my first time to spend the new year in the hospital.
Well, as I was allowed to use my computer in the room, I decided to keep a diary in apple-peace blog.
So now, I'm writing what happened today in my diary.
This morning, I had a regular blood test to check my state of health. What made me feel relieved was that the result wasn't going bad. I am looking forward the day I can leave the hospital and have a new start of my life of campus. I can't wait it!!
Anyway, even though I hate the truth I am a patient, but I Like all the stuffs of this hospital.
They are really kind to me everyday and I am lucky because my doctor is really handsome and a gentleman. I like him and I'd like to keep a contact even after I leave the hospital. If it is possible, I am definitely the most happy girl in the world!! What is more, I am feeling good today
because he called me Miki Chan instead of ~San!! It Is the first time he called me that way.
I can't believe it for a while and that's why I was SO Happy today!
Hehe, everything will be fine after you get through hard days.
That's what I learnt in my hospital life.

How did you spend your X'mas?

Hello, everyone! How did you spend y0ur X'mas? Someone that have boyfriends would have a romantic night. And Someone that are single like me..also could enjoy X'mas! There are exactly many ways to spend a fun Christmas!

As for me, On Christmas Eve, I went to Dojyo to practice Kyudo with my teammates. At 1:30pm, we had lunch at Mos Burger Restaurant. As a special menu, we ordered five pieces of chicken and got a pink bear toy. We had a fun a lot.

And finally Christmas came! I, with the same mebers went to Fuchinobe Theater to see Howl's moving castle at 11:45. It was the second time for me to see this movie. But I liked the movie so much that I was able to enjoy it again. The girls seeing it were all content at it! And we all agreed that the dog appeared in the movie was so CUTE!! We can't stop love him!

After seeing the movie, the girls decided to go to my room. So we rented " Cutty Blond" at Tsutaya and saw it at my room. However, a unexpected happenings occured to us! We had both Japanese and English subtitles! And what is worse, English one lays on Japanese one so we couldn't see Japanese subtitles. Because Elle, the heroine is a typical American fast speaker.
We were busy at cathing up the whole meanings of words.

Well, these are the ways I spent my X'mas. Merry Christmas! And Have a nice year! ☆

knitting

knitting
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It is getting colder and colder. I am not that strong at coldness. So I have started knitting since last month.

I am knitting a muffler for myself.
Whenver I go out the street, I feel extremely chilly over my neck. All I need is nothing but a warm muffler!

It takes time to finish it. And I will try my best and decide to finish it during winter. I am looking forward to it!!

Christmas Special Menu

Last night, I had a X'mas special dinner in my dormitory.

We had really gorgeous menu exactly. We had the leg of Turkey, a piece of Chocolate cake,
and spicy curry rice.

Every food seemed so Christmas! I got full very much and I enjoyed my dinner!

One little happening tonight.

Hi, eveyone.
I am living in a student dormitory in Machida.
We have breakfast, dinner from Monday to Saturday. And we can have bath or get shower every day in public bath. So the life in dormitory gives us comfortable feelings just like we are at our own home. We are never troubled by buying food to eat or something.
Eveything is okay but except of only ONE problem that is unavoidable to face. That is FREEDOM! Every dormitory has its curfew! In the dormitory, we are supposed to come back by 11:00pm. At first I thougt of nothing, because I believed I would never come back after curfew.
However, a few weeks ago, I DID it. I went to Maihama to go to after SIX Disney Land with my friends. We did have a fun time. But when it turned to 10pm, I knew my face suddenly got pale. I would not make myself back to the dormitory in time. Because Maihama is never that close to Machida. It takes us more than one hour to get to it.
After hesitating for a while, I finally made up my mind calling to the manager in the dormitory. No doubt he was quite angry. But somehow I managed to persuade him not to lock the front door until i come back.
Since that, the relation between the manager and me have become a little strained. Of course I feel sorry for him, but I was giving much more thought to my freedom. It is not that easy thing especially for University students to not to go out late. I am in Kyudo club and sometimes i am to be staying late.
Tonight, however, my thought got a little changed. When I prepared to take a shower and down to the stair, I saw the manger and his wife were sitting on the sofa in dark. It was almost near to 12:00pm. No sooner than they saw me, the manager asked me abruptly, " Miss Kawakami, how do you say " you should come back by 11:00pm on time" in Chinese?" Yes, they were waiting for a Taiwanese girl to come back. They were waiting for her for about one hour. I suddently reminded of the truth I also HAD MADE them wait for me late at night. That time, I felt extremely sorry and regret I wasn't able to think at their side. I was only worried about myself instead of realizing I was bothering some people without self consciousness. That was a terrible thing.
I didn't know I was so selfish. I should have been more thoughtful. All I know today is that Freedom comes with responsibility. I think I must not forget it and bear it in my mind.

Thursday, 16th December, 2004

Today, it was a normal day. Nothing special had happened.
Maybe life is just like this. I do expect something special event happening to me almost everyday. I am dreaming of it all around when I am alone at home.
But things don't always go the way you want it to.
I know it. But somebody great said if you lose your hope. Hope is just like the oxygen, without hope, you will get despaired, and faint.
So I decide to keep on hoping.
Live my every day.
Life is beautiful.

Happy Birthday to Me~~♪

Friday, December 10th was my birthday! I am 19 year-old now! It was also the day I said farewell to 18~~Ah, now I feel so complicated. What on earth did I do last year? What did 18 year-old mean for me? And how should I spend my 19? The age of 19 is the last year as an teenager. I am not ready to be an adult yet. (^_^;)

By the way, today, it was a great day for me. On saturday, i went to Kyudo club and practiced hard as usual. And when I finished the club, i was called to come to the circle of all my fellow peers, then at sudden the applause was occured. Happy Birthday to Miki!!♪ They cheered all together! I was surprised because I never thought I would have so many people celebrate my birthday. I felt extremely happy and moved. Today it was the last day of our regular practice in 2004. And it absolutely became one of my most unforgettable day~♪ I want to say to everyone that Thank You All A Lot!

Christmas is coming up soon. I haven't decided how to spend it yet. I am thinking of going see Howl's moving castle again with my peers in Kyudo club, or coming back to my hometown Okayama spend time with my parents~I have a few choices♪So what is everyone's plan of X'mas?

BARBABAPA!

BARBABAPA!
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Here is my Birthday Present I got on Saturday. It is a RED Barbabapa! I love the color of Red, because red means passion! I like this very much~

800 arrows in two months!!

Hello guys. How is everyone doing these days? Last Sunday, it was INCREDIBLY HOT, and the highest temperature was 28C!! I can't believe it! It is winter now!! No doubt that GLOBAL WARMING is proceeding day by day. But it is winter after all. The day time is warm and when it gets dark it get chily. So people should take coats or wear warm for it.☆

Well, let's return to the main topic this time. Maybe some people already know that I am in Kyudo club? We practice Kyudo very hard twice a week, Wednesday and Saturday. Except the regular practice, we would usually go to routine sport centers together to play Kyudo. So it is not difficult to have a chance to see us with two meters high archery in the campus. Actually TODAY I have brought my own archery to the school~=

As we are to have two months holiday, we would not have played Kyudo in the club since next week. It's good to have a long vacation...BUT!! The leader of our club has made an goal to all of the members! That is to shoot 800 arrows during the holiday!! You know, Kyudo is an martial art that need physical strength. We normally only shoot 4 arrows in one Tachi ( stand). And 800 means we should do 200 tachi in total!! Our seniors said it was never a big deal and that it was no more than a piece of cake!! But to us, freshman, it is NEVER that easy!! Just last Sunday, I went to the Dojyo and was playing Kyudo for over 8 hours. However, I was only able to shoot 65 arrows on that day..(>~<) What is more, we have to pay 200 yen in every two or three hours..it is not free..which means if i don't work dead harder, i would come to use enormous amount of money!!

Um,,this time i got a little excited...sorry. But it never changes my mind that I still LOVE KYUDO!! Well, ehen,, I will go to practice Kyudo after finishing 4 period!! For my fairly Kyudo~~Forever~~♪Cheers！！☆☆☆

Christmas Tree in Disneyland!

Christmas Tree in Disneyland!
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I wish you a merry christmas, you wish your merry christmas♪

X'mas is coming up! And Disney won't miss it of course! It was a quite large tree!! I am sorry my camera phone is out of date, that it wasn't able to express the beauty of the tree! But never mind, just feel Christmas!

Mickey and his girl friend

Mickey and his girl friend
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This is the picture I took in Disney Land this Wednesday. I went to there with my friends at 6 o'clock at night, so it was really dark that day.

It was my first time to visit Disney Land, and I liked it very much!!