New things I have started recently..

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I haven't blogged for several days because I have been restless for these days.

I have started to attend a driving school since this week. To tell the truth, I had never dreamed of this and I had always expected I would have been spending all the time reading or seeing films at home. Something do happen without your expecting. Honestly, I was pleased at this happening though first time I heard about it, I was totally astonished.

Since the day I applied to the driving school, I have never failed to join the classes and have a practice driving lessons. All I have found out was that driving was never that simple thing and getting a drive license demand your infinite patience and constant efforts. I am the last person who is good at practice though I might be better at theory. For me, memorizing a lot of English idioms or knowledges at books doesn't bother me at all, but in case of practice, I would always be confused. Driving is SO difficult for me though it is absolutely interesting.

At last, I could take a break in this weekend. I would try to take more photos when I have a walk outside. The picture of the white and black cat was taken by me a few days ago. She seemed to be a little annoyed when hearing sound of shutter being disturbed.

About the links..

I linked some blogs and interesting sites to my blog.
Just have a go.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

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This morning,when I just walked around my house, I happened to notice this butterfly stop at the small rock. I was lucky that I had got this shutter chance.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

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It's the pot I used for soup.

Can you see some "SCUM" on the surface of it!? At least I can. So disgusting!Haha.

One of the experiments in my cooking life.

My Original Miso Soup

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I made a Miso Soup by myself at lunch yesterday. My mom was out for her work, and there was nobody but me at home at the moment. So I decided to fix something for myself.

I have always helped my mom cook, like cutting vegetables, frying, or making soup, of course. But actually, all I did was just help, not all processing. So this time, I am doing a dish all by myself. You can sense how nervous I was. It was my first time to cook alone. A absolutely Big CHALLENGE for me!:-)

As being said making soup is extremely simple thing, I just put some shiitake mushroom, carrots and lettuce into pot while water began to boil. And finally add Miso ( Soybean paste) and some meat to it. Then FINISHED!! HERE is my original SOUP! What do you think of it? Don't say that the color looks like dark or not like a soup!! I washed ingredient, but it didn't seem perfect. Yeah, but it doesn't matter! One thing is tangible is that it can be eaten despite of its taste.

Cooking was NOT that simple thing as I had expected.（I0T）

Friday, May 13, 2005

Video Rental Shop

Today, I had my mom drive me to a video rental shop TSUTAYA. This is one of the biggest video rental shops in Japan. I have long time no gone to the shop since I come back to my hometown. Once upon a time, I would often drop at the shop on my way home from my school when I was a senior high school student.

It's much reassuring for me to know there weren't many people there. I got to the shop at about 4, it's normal that people are still at work, and student at school. But at the moment, I felt a little strange and lonely because I should have been concentrating on listening to the lectures surrounded by my friends at my campus in Tokyo. Actually, I don't usually feel this way, but SOMETIMES, in ocassion, I did. I think I began to miss my friends in my campus. Most of them told me how there were killed by every hard work or report from school. I know, and all I can do is wish them a good luck. Take care of your health, guys~I'm doing well in here. Cuz I believe a saying. That is , "I will prepare, and someday my chance will come!" I forgot who said it, but I truely believe this saying from my heart. Everyday may seem dull and unchanging for us, but what we ought to do is just preparing for every moment and wait for our chance come to us. Daily life is important, because there is never a same day come again in our life.

Looking people so busy, sometimes I would feel I had nothing to do but eat, sleep and read etc. Now I have plenty of time to do everything I love to. It is great. Everything is perfect except one fact that my fellow peers who I can share my interest with are all far apart from me now.
Hey, I've got missing you guys, are you aware of that?:-)

Fresh Strawberry

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At 6pm, I was asked by neighborhood whether I would like to go to pick some strawberries with them together. Of course the answer was " Sure"! I LOVE STRAWBERRY!

We got to the field after driving for approximately 15 minutes. The place we had arrived was completely country. All we could see from around was hills surrounding us. The air was fresh and the fields was really wide. I wonder how they've got such a good land. Because you know what, land in this small country is really precious and expensive! I have always wished for a land so that I could live in a country cultivating or planting some fruits and vegetables when I get old. An Utopia completely belonging to me. How wonderful if this dream would come true one day~:-)

Bath Candle

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I bought this candle recently. Pink light and sweet scent make you relax a lot on the bath. You should try this~

wisteria curtain

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I like this color, light purple wisteria! So beautiful!!

Wisteria

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Lately,I had my father drive me and some of my friends to a park which are well-known for beautiful wisterias. It is said that the number of varieties of wisterias are the most here. Actually these wisterias are not only from various prefectures in Japan,but also from China and other foreign countries. I took some of these pictures of purple and white ones. They all looked so beautiful, didn't they?:-)

Sunday, May 8, 2005

Watching Videos

Time comes to 8 o'clock in the morning, I got up and ready for a walk. The road I am going to is flanked with green trees and colorful flowers. The CD I was listening to is Usher's <> album. I like to do everything with songs whenever I am having a walk, hanging out or folding the washing and etc. Sometimes i would even dance or hum with the music together. Music soothes me a lot.

11am, mom went out for her job. And just then, I got a call from my friend asking me to eat Chinese meat dumpling at his home. Some of my friend they are good at cooking and making delicious chinese cuisine. I was a little hesitated whether to go or not because I had already planed what to do today. Besides, he has just got married lately, it deserved to think something sensible. Although I know his wife very well but I still don't feel really comfortable when being with them alone. It is just sort of awkawrd. But one the other hand, Gyoza is one of my favorite food and whatever, it is no better than have a lunch without self cooking! Therefore, I decided to go promising to be there at 12.

12am, reaching at their home, having meat dumpling together. Yummy!! The taste was over my expectation actually! After finishing the lunch, we saw <Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban> at home theather. I missed seeing it at theater, so this time I saw it I was totally moved. I would read the book again. Seems so interesting!!<Kung Fu Hustle> is also an interesting movie directed by Chow Xinchi, a famous HongKong comedy actor. Really excited. His movies always teach people not to give up your dreams and never forget your pure heart. Too right!!

Mother's Day

Today May 8 is mother's day in Japan. It's a day our daughters say thanks to their mothers. Arigato, Okaasan!! ( Thanks a lot, mom! I appreciate you!) Also we bought some gifts for our mothers. So am I. This morning, I gave her a blue christal bracelet I had bought for her on the other day. She looked astonished to get present from me because I had never done this thing before. But I know she was happy. All I want to say to her is "Mom, you helped me a lot. I love you~!"

Monday, May 2, 2005

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Yesterday,at 3, I went to a friend's home. She called me to come to her home to have a BBQ Party the day before yesterday. She came back from her university to her home recently.


It was rainy and cloudy yesterday, so I wasn't in mood going out side. But well, because it IS a PROMISE, I had to go whatever the weather would be like. But NOW, I would say it was WORTH! Her home was near to the hospital, so I was able to visit there again to see Hanachan!! I haven't seen him for about twenty days if I count it. Honestly, I had never given a thought I would see him so soon. I just wanted to go to library and search some books at first. THEN tak a chance cuz I had no idea if i were lucky enough to meet him at hospital because that day was Sunday, he would possibly not be there. But I WAS ABLE to see him. I was so lucky! The staffs were all my acquaintances, who worked hard and helped me a lot when I was totally down because of illness. So I was able to behave myself and we had a ball. I was satisfied and made up my mind not to ask more.


A little bitter, but happy. I should cherish this time I have. Life is just like this.

Discussing Politics

After coming back home, I was surprised to find the shoes increased in front door. They had invited other friends while I and K was out. BBQ party's begun!

It was fun though we didn't know each other at first. Mother and her friend was busy with preparing dishes for us, chatting loudly. I liked harumaki best and rolling lots of food, like meat, vegetable and anything else into it. They were so triffic! I haven't eaten that chinese food for ages. After finishing dinner, mothers and fathers began talking about demonstration and some movement Japan's government should take against China. They constantly used the word "facing history as mirror" in a strict way being eloquently critical and eager. People here are really concerned about politics. I was a little shamed for myself because I didn't have enough knowledge about politics and history between the two country that much. So all I could do was keep silent and listen to their opinions which I think a little emotive and one-sidely. It is hard to avoid this phenomenon happen because the discussing people here are all from same background, all used to come here as an exchange student from their common nation. In this case, their children are mostly hard-studying and brilliant. Most of them did do well at school when they in thier motherland, so it wasn't that hard for them to master language and go to would-be prestige colleges in Japan. They would always feel sort of obligated to do better than their parents had done. They are tend to be young, clever, and adaptable especially when they were born in high educational background families.

Well, that may be so-called " Hungry Spirit" or..high expectation for prospects of their children. Bright future set by parents. .

Wednesday, April 27th, 2005

Part-time Job..

Lately, I have thought of what I can do from now on.

It seems to me that I must do something while staying in my hometown. Sometimes I feel envious seeing people go to work or school every morning. To me, job always looks dull and poor in changing. But Now I feel like begining something new to fulfill myself. Well, although I DO have started helping housework and flowering, such stuffs I am capable of doing, I still can't help feeling empty when I am alone.

I am alwaying hoping to do something. But I may not do it in practice. It's not the time yet.
Actually, I am to go to hospital again after Golden Week. I'd better have a talk with Dr. M about my plan to start part-time job. It may sound ridiculous because my total purpose staying here is all for my rehabilitation. I'm supposed to stay at home all day and take easy. People here are worried about me, so my thought would strike them a lot with dismay. I don't want to see that..

Well, I'm worried too much. Our efforts would never down the drain. I won't make it either!!Cheer up. Keep on thinking positive!!

Shakespear's The WInter's Tale

Hey. Have somebody read Shaspear's The Winter's Tale?
I read somebody's essay about this masterpiece of Shakespear. It compared Autolycus with " the Subtle Shift", claiming they are similar in many points as the vice. What do you think of it?
I haven't read them yet, so i have no idea about that.
Somebody who know it would please tell me??

Shopping in the mall

I wanted to blog what I did yesterday last night, but I gave up and decided to write it today because it is not good at my health to work too late. Sometimes, I have always wanted to finish one thing in one day, but now I know, it's more important to take it easy. Overwork would tell on our health!

Well, yesterday, I was really busy around. Watering the flowers in the garden at morning, going shopping with my mom at night. This is a life I may have longed for in my heart since I had been hospitalized. Simple, but sort of to my heart's content.One thing was different yesterday is we ( my mom and I) WALkED back to our home after finishing shopping. Usually, we would DRIVE to somewhere, but this time, we walked for exercise. I know it was all for my rehabilitation. Of course I was pleased at Ran's suggestion because I don't want to miss any chance to recover as soon as possible.

Okayama is a good place for people to live and relax because it is not as crowding as urban, Tokyo. Most of people here are easy going and kind. I was able to enjoy seeing high school students pedal their bicycles on their way home from school. In Tokyo, it is hardly to see because our most common transportation is train or subway. It doesn't seem to me that students would ride to their school. At least, I hadn't had a chance to have a look at this or more properly speaking, I DIDN'T bother myself to see this. I had been too busy with myself to notice them when in Tokyo. It is irreversible fact that I would have lost my heart because I had always been busy with my campus life and club. I had thought I would soon get used to it and both of schoolwork and club would be compatible since I had started to get my own place in Tokyo. But now I know I was totally wrong. I wasn't that strong as I had believed. This time, i got illness, and undoubtly, I DID lose my parents' faith on me. I have let them down so much. I am totally sorry for them and I think i have to take responsibility to them. What I have to do from now on?? Well, needless to say, learning to cook by myself and whole housework la! I never want to break the hearts of people I love again because of my selfish and childish. I would try my best to prove that I have learned so much from this lesson.So, please believe me, that I love you so much.

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Hollywood Actress appeared in my garden!?

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Well, she is NOT an actress or so on. This woman is Ran, my mom. I was helping her out planting the flowers into plots and all she did was get fresh soil and fertilize the Bonsai I just had cultivated.

Bonsai♪

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At 5, I was called down to cultivate dwarf trees. The flowers were bought by Ran and I the day before yesterday and today we were to plant these colorful flowers into plots. I haven't done gardening for ages so I was able to enjoy planting these flowers. It seemed so joyful to me though the job itself took time and tired me a lot. However, it is worth because soon we will be able to see BEAUTIFUL BONSAI decorated in our garden!!I CAN'T WAIT it!!>0<

Wednesday, April 20th, 2005

Distinction...

Today, I and Ran drove to Okadai hospital to have a check at 1:30pm.
The weather was rainy but that didn't influence our high tension at all. We are going to see Dr. H today! We haven't seen him for 20 days since my day out of hospital. It was exciting and full of expectation.

One thing out of our anticipation was that both of us forgot it was also a day I must take a blood sample!! I haven't had any preparation for that so I was nervous when being reminded of that by a receptionist. Fortunately, I didn't feel much pain because it got succuss at only one time. Because before when they got failed, I had to suffer horror wondering when on earth they would find my blood vessel properly. :-)

Although it took some time due to several mistakes, it was okay for me at all. I have already got used to it. Being awaited make no difference to me. Today we have another really important job. To go and see Dr. H!! Hence, I and Ran went to the ward as soon as things finished. Dr. H looked thinner than we had expected. He was working with his head down on the staff station so hard as not to notice I and Ran was standing in front of him. He seemed a little alarmed when he saw us. But shortly he gave us a comfortable smile and begain to explain some datas of blood test for us. I was greatly happy to see him but at the same time, I felt a little disappointed because we were unable to talk to each other as long as before we did when I had been hospitalized. Other staffs were looking and he had to work hard. He couldn't spare that much time to chat with us and that was the truth both Ran and I know exactly though we are SO HAPPY to see each other. I would like to see him outside of hospital but there seems we don't have that chance so far. He is a doctor, and I, one day have to leave for Tokyo to restart my campus life. Nothing should happen to us though we think of each other so much. I even don't know his phone number though I had dare passed him mine. Actually, I don't know about him at all. His age, life style, and anything private. I must have been a dreamer, wondering someday we would have a talk in a cafeteria. I thought we had a good time in the hospital, but once it passed, we owned nothing in our hands. All the things seemed so unrealistic for me. A long long happy dream..What I ought to do from now on is say goodbye to it and PRACTICE myself! Be more thoughtful and nice enough to get a man I love's heart. Ganbare!!!

Monday, April 18th, 2005

A Blessing in Disguise

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These days, I have always had something to do. Although I spend my time almost at my own home while others attend to their college, stangely I don't feel I am that lonely or dull at all. Enjoy my time seems to be an incentive for me to keep a good mind status.

Yesterday, I had my mom drive me to the station to see a friend I didn't see for a long time. Strictly speaking, the people I had an appointment with was my teacher rather than just one of my friends. He used to be my private tutor when I first came to Japan. He is a graduate student at Okayama University in current. We havn't met each other for approximately one year. But it didn't take much time to recognize one another. He looks younger in spite of his age. Ran convinced me that was because the man always look younger than their real age when I mentioned that.

Getting on the car, we reached at a surpermarket. Mr.K ( his name) walked directly to drink corner and bought some of them for me. He told me that I should take a lot of liquid because it is good for my kidney. I was surprised and moved by his thoughtful attention. His house doesn't change a lot except one thing that he comes to keep a pet, a dog really take to people easily. We talked about my disease and what I must be doing afterward. One word was truely impressive. In short, I should think positively and just be happy everyday. It is definitely correct cuz I have experienced too much while being hospitalized, I have learned how to be myself and thank to eveyday given to me. For me, this disease is a blessing in disguise for that I was given a chance to think my life again and what is really important to me.

What I am doing at home alone is reading and surfing sites on net. One thing different is what books I am reading are in Chinese. Honestly I didn't read any Chinese writen books for ages so when one of my friends recommended those books to me, I felt a little confused and reluctant. However, despite of my low expectation, I found I was enchanted with every sentence writen in vivid Chinese. I can have sympathy with every word and feel what author's would feel. It's some feelings I can't have when I read them in Japanese. This moment, I realize I have missed my mother tongue so much. It's a great deep impression when I encountered some touchable stories and words. Some that help you out a lot. I think I ought to get back something important that I have lost and missed.

Chinese Cuisine and music

While I finished blogging and was about to say hello to a friend online, I heard my name called by my mom. She told me to get prepare to get on her car. It was 7 o'clock, dinner time. So I asked where we were going. The answer back was Cui Yuan, a Chinese cuisine restaurant.

We haven't come all a way to eat Chinese food so I was wondering what taste it would be. You know what, as Japanese are proud of deliciousness of Sushi, Chinese are also particular about their nation's food outside their country. The waitress is a Chinese girl who speak fluent Japanese. Even the main customers are Chinese. It's such an interesting sight for me to see a Chinese man shout at the kitchen advising a cooker to add vinegar in a particular dish. And the waitress was just giggling at that man complaining. These are the most common and natural scenes you could see in any restaurant in China. And that remind me of most of dear memories when I was a child. It's undeniable it is China where I spent my childhood, I can't help feeling close to any Chinese who living in Japan. I don't care where part they are from, or who they are.

As to the music, I have got a CD also sung in Chinese. Most of them are hip pop and love song. Unlike J Pop, Chinese lyrics are repeated time by time. That make you feel it was like Enka, simple but easy to remember. I can put myself into the songs and feel them. It makes me comfortable although whatever quality and variety, J pop is all over China's. But I still feel like most movable songs are those sung in my native language. Easy remeber and easy to sing either.